Lost

I’m at that stage in my life just before my last semester of college where i’m constantly thinking about my future. Where will i end up working? Am i going to move away? Should i apply to grad school? So many questions flooding my mind, if only I had some answers.

I’m not quite sure what i want to do or where i want to go after graduation. I feel so lost. I don’t see myself working in Lebanon, at least not permanently. I could always return to Australia, the place I grew up. It’s familiar territory after all. But i’ve come to realize that’s exactly what I don’t want. Although the idea of returning to my first home is comforting, i’m much more eager to delve into the unknown, the unfamiliar. But where to go?

Many people take a gap year to clear their mind and ‘find themselves’ but all i’m looking for is a fresh start. As much as I love travel I have plenty of time to do that once i’ve settled somewhere. Needless to say, I’m not going to settle for any job offer I get because I don’t want to limit myself in any way. Sure, any offer is better than nothing, “everybody starts somewhere”, they say. But I don’t just want a fresh start, I want a good start.

Most recent college graduates in Lebanon end up in the Emirates, Europe, or the States and i’ll most likely end up following them. Would I be happy in any of these places though? I guess I’ll never know unless I try.

“Great things never came from comfort zones.”

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